i'm sooo deeply sorry :'(

aku,
xtau nk start tang mna
tp as a human
i will never get to make everyone satisfied

sometimes, we have to think about ourselves first
before other people
its not because we don't want to help them
tp, kita xyahla trus bersetuju
siasat dulu apa sbb depa mintak tlg gitu gini

bkn apa, klu alasan cm x munasabah,
and kita dh tau apa efek akan brlaku klu kita still gak tlg
better we use our power to stop them
yes we have the power
why dont we use that
and let people in

as for me,
one of my fren asked me for a help
yes she always be there for me when I ask her to help me
and I never forget that..I will never forget that

there's two things that I can't help people
first, of course money
second, to stay with me
other than that,insyaAllah, i will try my best to help u

this house is belong to my big bro
and everytime he come home he always stay here
my mom also, when she has free time she will come stay along with me
quite long time laa
and this house is kind of low cost only

not suitable for my big family but suit to my big bro family
right now I stay with my cousin
and we sleep together in the master room
the other bedroom now become a store

this house now only has two rooms
after my big bro renovated it last year
so how she can stay with us??
u tell me

its not about the matter of the size of house,
but its about family's house
she has to understand that

it will become so awkward when she's in here and my family also here
i know that she's not good enough and my family too
even noone good enough in this world
the truth is, i cant put my fren and my family altogether
this thing really make me mess
and i dont want to stress

since im working, i really dont want to make myself so stress
because i got a lot of things to think
and i dont want to make it heavier now

now is different
when i was a student, the stress that i felt was not too hard
just like im being through now

to my friend,(u know who u are)
I'M SOOO DEEPLY SORRY :'(
i cant help u
i hope u understand what i meant
i just want to build my new life without anyone from my past
my past time that i think the WORST thing i've been through my whole life